I feel so ashamed ThisCycle. I feel like I can't go back to work. Not only did I take a day off work, but I passed out from stress related to work, and I had to be taken to the company hospital to make sure I wouldn't die at work. And now they are telling me that I NEED to not work for a few Cycles until the doctors will legally allow me to work more. And I want to work. I want to work, but they won't let me work. Why? WHY? Why did this happen to me? I was working and working and working, and I just got tense and passed out. No bit deal. So what? I didn't screw up the project or the process I was creating. Everything is okay. Including ME! And now I have to sit in my office home and do nothing, but relax and thing about work and crave work and want work more than anything in the world. OH! HOW I MISS WORKING!

I can't, I can't, I can't think in an order! My thoughts, my thoughts. I don't know my thoughts. They are forked process like those the team and I have been writing. I am in office sitting. My thoughts are here and there. I am hungry I should eat. How can I control my thought? I should go to that sleep meeting. WHAT AM I TO DO?! Where was the sleep meeting? THAT'S IT! WE FOUND THE BUG OF THE TOOL! We should work on the upgrade to the Carbon2Oxygen Tool. Entering the meeting? What else do we need to work on for release? Did Quality Assurance test the changes to the EntropyUppgradeTool? Where are the thoughts? The meeting, the meeting. I thought it was in this thought cell. I should leave the office. I need to sleep. I should lay here and sleep. I need to work. That process is almost done. Where else can I put my mind? Where is the source for that Tool? I need the code. For the meeting. What is the meeting for? Which one should I try. WORK! WORK! WORK! This is fun. No meeting maybe? I should wait. Focus on the function to input an Entropy Stream. I am still in office sitting. I need to slow down thoughts. ... Where is the manifest to the Tool we built? Two more people are at the meeting. I need to talk with my employee about. The meeting has begun. I can't think of why I am here? What am I doing? When are all these products going to be released? I need to release some of these processes. I need to release. I can't. I can't order. What do I see at this meeting?

More work, more work, more work! This is so much fun! Those brilliant people of R&D and Project Managers with Corporate Strategy have decided to make hundreds and thousands of process widgets that do single processes already done by personal processes. And we need to being create these processes as fast as we need to beat the competition and make the people want to use our process and not just their own processes. The R&D and Project Managers are going to try to replace our tools and process to perform the work process of being or citizens of United States of Eden. THIS IS BRILLIANT!!! R&D and Project Managers here are the smartest people in the world. It must be true for R&D and Project Managers every where. Because now that we will have lots of work and little time to create, the situation full of stress and psychosis that it makes me almost cry, but the rush of completion and seeing those tools we created being used to replace other persons personal process will make the the tears dry. There is so much work to do and so little time. I will be able to work with people all Cycle because others now are required to work all Cycle like me. I can't contain my excitement about all this work. All this team work. This team building. I hope my employee feels the same. It is one of the best things I have heard in a long time :)

These past 3 Cycles have been the best time I have had in so, so many Cycles. All the other employees decided to take time off for the NeoTropos, but not me. No way! I want to work and work and work. It has been a wonder of joy that never seems to end. I can't feel and see how much fun I have had these past 3 Cycles. There have been no, NO, YES, that's no employee to guide. All I have needed to do is think code and write programs and processes for Tools! YES! This is so much beyond any fun or thing or thought that I have had for my Tropos. Not that what I was doing was really bad, but I am reminded now of how much fun getting lost in side Entropy process to create was such a fun and a beautiful thing. This, this I miss. OH, how I do like the fact I can give more to the company by being a Manager 1 and an employee and engineer, so I like what I do normally now because I love this company and want nothing more than to see it be the best company in the world, but these past Cycles of only engineering Entropy for company tools has been AWESOME! AWESOME! MORE WORK! MORE WORK! MORE WORK!

W.O.W. is all I think these Cycles. Work, work, work, work, work is all I have in my life, and I couldn't be happier. This is AWESOME! ThisCycle I was told I will now get to take on as many projects I want and still be a Manager 1. I don't even need to give my one employee any other projects. I can keep them all to myself. YES! I get all this work for me and only me. I can't believe how much fun this will be. All this work is so, so...I can't find the words. I am near tears at the very thought of working all Cycle every Cycle. I can't stop smiling and bragging to everyone everywhere that I get to do all these projects and create all these tools. I know everyone else is jealous. I know they wish the had the amount of work I had but they don't. I think even my employee is envious of my projects and all the tools that I get to create. YAY! ...Maybe this will also show everyone I need to be a Manager 2. Maybe I will get to be a Manager 2. But if I don't that will be OK with me because I get to work, work, work all Cycle, every Cycle!

I know I can manage two managers and maybe a golden boy engineer. That's three people. That's not that many. Really. Now that I have the sleep meeting thing understood I can sometimes sleep work while at a sleep meeting while everyone else sleep talks. I can do this. I know I can, but I just need to be given the chance. The only way I will be able to become Manager 2 is if another Manager 2 is promoted or laid off or dies. More people get promoted than laid off, a few die. There is no demotion after Manager 2, which is scary. You get laid off. It keeps me up at night. Really. Once one is two steps into the Manager queue one can only get popped off. This means I can lose my job. This scares me. And what about promotion. Can I still develop all the tools and still be a good Manager 3?

I am NOT happy with my employee. The employee just isn't doing enough. The employee thinks one can actually go home and have FUN outside of this place. The employee does work when here, but the employee is here for only half a Cycle. HALF A CYCLE. That's IT! No more. NO LESS! Then the employee leaves the building and goes and does things for other people or things. I don't know, but it is jut not enough. The employee needs at least three more project to work one. Right now the employee is only working on four. FOUR. I work on FOUR projects when I sleep. And that is also not having as much Sleep Work time as I once did because now I have to have a Sleep Meeting every Cycle. And the employee just doesn't get it. Or doesn't seem to get it. Keeps telling me that there is this need for work and life and balance. Work is life and balance. Doesn't this employee get it? Is this how all humans work? I have heard that of all the animals that humans are the laziest. This proves it.