Stupid Fuck Head -

My Synthetic Diamond Is Loose

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 19:42:21 -0700

This is annoying because I can't stop playing with my Synthetic Diamond. Another thing, ANOTHER THING, to hate the body. This Synthetic Diamond is loose, itching AND it is putting noise into to my thoughts that are being transmitted. The last time I got a new Synthetic Diamond they said it would
last longer. They said it may last as long as I live, but that was a lie. A LIE. A lie because it's loose, and I can't stop for the life of me stop pressing on it. I want to press upon it to cause lots of pain then the pain will numb the itch. The itch. The itch that I want scratch until my flesh peals off. I should stop. I need to stop. I need to let the Synthetic Diamond be. I need to get it replaced, but I don't have time. I have not time to replace it. I need to, but work. The work, so I will wait. I will wait until I can't work because it is too loose and they can't read my mind to work or my body rejects the Synthetic Diamond.

I Hate The Body

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 06:22:54 -0700

I wish I could be pure process. If I wasn't hindered by having a body, a machine, I could work better, faster, more. Then my manager wouldn't need to worry about needing work done because I could do it all. Then I could do all work if I had no body. Instead, I am held back by the body to prevent me from becoming only a work process, so I can not have all work.

I have thought about killing the body. Then I realize I can't kill the body. If I kill body then I could die forever. Then there would be no work processes at all. Then I wouldn't be able to work. If I remain alive and let the body die naturally while and from working then I could rebirth a work process. Else I could kill the body to hope to become a work process, but then I may not return as any process. If I kill self by killing the body, the work of me could be erased. It's not a bug. I reviewed the code to commit to the source the process to record one's existence. If the process ends before Entropy's Equated Time then all data of you is lost in a time loop. It's old code. Bad code. Maybe I will rewrite it?

Work, Work! WORK!

Mon, 25 May 2009 13:40:52 -0700

Where's that library? Where, where, where, where did I write and save it? WHERE! I CAN'T FIND IT! I CAN'T FIND IT! This is too much. I can't think. The functions are processing thoughts in mind. I have become one with the Entropy interface. I can't feel my body. My body. Do I have a body? I can't remember what I was looking for? What...What was I doing? What? I was writing a process for work project BFA. That project is near done. That's right! The logic switch. I was programming the logic switch from...No. That is what I was working on before that. I have that work being tested. That is being tested and now that test is. ...That is not what I am working. ...I am not working. ...I can't think of what I think about. I can't remember. What function did I need that library for. I can't. It's not...It's not a thought. I can't remember. I can't think. I can't.

WORK

Wed, 20 May 2009 22:32:18 -0700

I can't think beyond the process. This processes. What do I need to do? Where is that library? I can't find it. Where is it? The deadline. The deadline is near. It is very near. Where is that function? Where? It's not a standard tool. It's not the of the template library. Where, where, where, where, where, where, where? WHERE IS IT! FUCK. I FUCKING HATE THIS JOB. I FUCKING DON'T WANT TO FUCKING DO THIS. IT IS THE STUPIDEST THING EVER. WHY THE FUCK DO I DO THIS? I CAN'T FIND ONE STUPID FUCKING LIBRARY. WHERE, WHERE, WHERE, WHERE, WHERE! WHERE IS THIS FUCKING STUPID, FUCKING, FUCKING, FUCKING, FUCKING, FUCKING, FUCKING STUPID LIBRARY. I NEEEEEEEEEED TO FIND THIS NOW, LAST CYCLE. I NEED THIS PROJECT DONE. I WANT IT COMPLETE. I HATE THIS. I HATE WHAT I DO? I NEVER WANT TO DO THIS AGAIN... WHY ME? WHY...Why...Wait...Wait...This is the library. This is it. This is what I need. YES! This is what I need. AND IT WORKS! IT WORKS! Yes, I love this job! I love it.

Sub-Contracting With Blood Diamond

Mon, 11 May 2009 22:14:28 -0700

W.O.W.. I have been honored but my Manager #1 through Manager #15. I will be contracted to work with Blood Diamond, Info, to begin integrating Eden of Eden's monetary system with Blood Diamond's money standard. I get to work, non-stop, until the job is complete. YES! This means I will not be threatened with free time or free thought. I will be expected to work all my life until the contract is complete. I will be given so much work that I am told I will no longer be able to think of anything but work processes. Can this be true? I have had so many managers promise a job of non-stop work, but they never, NEVER, came through with their promise. Can this be real? Is some one lying to me? I hope not. That would be sad if this job is not true. If it is not real I will be sad. Then I will only be able to dream of a job like the one promised when working with Blood Diamond, Info. I have even been informed that the mangers at Blood Diamond are rude and they do nothing but give you work and commands to work harder. Can this be true? I hope it is true. I love it when managers DON'T ask me how I feel or what I think. I DON'T CARE. ...Why should they? All that matters is the work, the tools, the pleasure of doing what another tells me to do. Now, now I will be able to live the dream and work all my life.

WorkEnd :(

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 17:45:31 -0700

...Do I have to leave the office? ...No...I don't think I do. I only need not work. That is what that voice is seeing and saying to me. I can't work. I can only not work. I can do anything else. I can't work. I only can't work. What...What? I could go outside? I could, but what would happen if WorkBegin Bell rang, and I was outside. Then I would miss out on the work I could have been doing if I was in the office right after the bell rang. It's best to stay in the office. It will enable to be work right after WorkBegin. ...What to do? I could clean the office. Would that be work? I wonder if there is any food left in these containers scattered about the office. If I was looking for food in containers then put the containers in the trash then it would not technically be working. No, it wouldn't be working. It would be personal energy time. It would. I do need to eat. Water. I should water my pot and stand in it. The roots are dry. Now that the Waterer is not working I have to get my own water. That's what I will do. I will look for food and water. And wait. Wait for work to return.

I May Be Stupid Fuck Head But I Am Not Stupid

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 22:43:59 -0700

Working while I am awake and while I sleep just is not enough. No, I need to find away to work more. I need too. If I don't then people will think I am lazy. If I don't they may...Yes, they may think I am stupid. And that...And that can't be. It can't...No, I can't have that. I am smart. I get things done. I will give my life for the company. I do give my life for the company because some day the company will give back. I know it. They will protect and watch out for me and they will help me live. I know the company will never intentionally do me harm unless it is a mistake. I know this because the company is great. It is the reason to live. It is the reason to be. Work, afterall, is everything. It is all the reason to live. I can not reason why we live but to work. No one has a better reason. If work was not the reason we live then why do we all do it?

Is This A Joke?!

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 21:09:21 -0700

I waited and waited and waited and waited and waited and waited for the work order to come. I had 9 people told me, PROMISED ME, that I would have more work ThisCycle. THEY PROMISED ME!!! ...They did. Instead, instead they left work without letting me know. WITHOUT! Showing me that it was time that they were to go. They just left me wondering if they were going to give me work. ...I have enough work, but I want more. I want it all. I want that work of theirs and they promised me they were going to give me work. I even told everyone I would login as them and work for their hours. I don't care. Work is work. I will work your work if you want me to work your work. I will. I promise. I really really really really promise, but don't. They can't. They just don't know of anything, but to promise me work and then leave work. They leave me wanting. They hate me. They are mean. They don't like me :(

WORK :)

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 20:35:32 -0800

Job. I have a job. They kept me! Oh, the humanity. It's great. I feel good. I feel even better because I get to now work all my time for all my life. That is as good as news as being able to still work at Eden of Eden. I also get to complete E4 more projects. Now I NEED to do SleepWork. They are even giving me a working bed and my own office, so I don't need to leave to sleep in the section sleep area. Now I get to remain in the office and work. WORK! I HAVE MY JOB! The thought of losing my job now frightens me more than my last process. It would be my last process. I don't know if I could live without work. Even contract work is being processed away with no return except completion. It's a scary place to be. That place is not me. I have a job. I have a job all the time now. YAY!

Now WORK! WORK! WORK!

LAYOFFS!

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 16:14:05 -0800

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

MANDITORY WORKEND!

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 08:24:12 -0800

THIS COULD KILL ME! EDEN OF EDEN IS FORCING ME TO NOT WORK! I DON'T WANT TO STOP. IT! DON'T YOU GET IT! Please. Please understand. ...Let me work. I need it. It needs me. I know it needs me to work it. It's on the cusp, THE CUSP, of being complete. Of being what it needs to be. One more ThoughtLine. One more ThoughtStream. One more ThoughtProcess. Then. THEN. Then I will be able to have time free of work. THEN, then it won't be that big a deal. Then I can complete the process to compare the United States of Eden™ and Eden of Eden money systems. Then this will be done. This will be done, and I can do more. Much more. More like think the ThoughtProcess to input the money information into the systems of United States of Eden™. I feel. No, I know if I don't continue to work this thought and frame it then it could be Cycles, Hexes, TROPOSES! Until I can get the thought back. Until I will be able to get it done and begin to find the connections I see in my mind, now, again, to be able to create the ThoughtProcess. Time will be saved. And because time will be saved my life will be saved.

Working Full Time For Eden of Eden

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 20:51:27 -0800

WOW, I am working all the time now. ALL THE TIME. I don't work some time. I don't work part time. I work full time, which means ALL THE TIME. I have even been able to have sleep meetings. The system for sleeping meetings and sleep working processes is architectured and the application programing interface works differently here at Eden of Eden then at United States of Eden™, but the process and the thoughts and feelings are the same. Now even my dreams can once again be about what all dreams should be about: WORK! WORK! WORK! AND MORE WORK! That is how it is. That is. Now I only need to find a way to avoid having to use my Mandatory Timeoff. Mandatory Timeoff! YES, it confuses me. I just don't understand how they can make us not work. How can they? I don't know, but they do. United States of Eden™ never did care if we worked our lives away. It was GREAT! I could just live and work and nothing more. No need to leave the work place or the work thought or the work. It made life easy and good. Now, now I still need to think of being forced to not work. This is not productive. It consumes more thought away from work. Thought that I want, NEED, to use while I can because soon I will be forced to have an Oct of vacation. Eight Cycles away from the work. What will I do? What could I do if I didn't have the one thing in life I have and don't want to let go to waste by having time away from it? I need more time with it. I need time travel to exist, so I can go back in time and work more. Or I need a time machine to travel to after my Oct vacation, so I can return to work after only a second of being off work. That's what I need: A TIME MACHINE. Maybe I could program one? Maybe I will try to create a time machine during my required vacation? A vacation that will be ordered. A vacation that is ordered. At least, I am working full time. I love the thought.

THREE PROJECTS AT ONCE!

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 20:52:54 -0800

WOW! I have been given - GIVEN - two more project to work one. TWO! WOW! This is one of one of the greatest Cycles I have lived since being laidoff from United States of Eden™. One project I have seen is the MOST projects other employees have been given at Eden of Eden. Two isn't seen, but some have had two. I don't know anyone who is lucky enough to get three projects at one time. Three is unseen. NO ONE I KNOW. ...This is, so, so, so wonderful. I will never need to leave here. I will never ever ever need to do anything but work and work and work and work. WORK. MORE. OF. IT makes me cry. I cried last Cycle for the full Cycle as I was creating the UniversalEntropyTap. I cried so much that people want me to stop working, but I seen to them that I was crying tears of joy. Tears that I let dry to let me be reminded now and until the Cycles pass that I am working because they want me to work all the time. I get to work all the time. This is what life is. Life is work. And Eden of Eden let me live.

Protest?

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 22:00:37 -0800

I received a site message during sleepwork. The message was informing me of the location and time of a protest against Eden of Eden for removing two items from the menu of free food that is cooked for all the employees of Eden of Eden. I guess they will no longer be offering spinach and pork as a menu item because of some complaints about dietary restricts and a restriction of supply. Which is fine with me because there are many other things to eat for free. Why do I need to eat pork or spinach? I don't, so I won't be protesting. Even if I only ate pork and spinach I don't understand what a protest proves. Is it for people who need a reason not to work? Which is crazy because who wouldn't want to work. That's crazy. I guess if you're crazy you want other people to know by protesting? Maybe? I don't know. It feels to me that these protesters are crazy, and when layoffs come around that they will be the first to go. And there's no way I am going to jeopardize my job here. Eden of Eden is...It has a beautiful data set. If it means not having food to work it then they can take all the food. Just please don't take the work and the data. Then, then I would be sad and protest.

LOVE WORKING FOR EDEN OF EDEN :)

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 19:44:55 -0800

I love working all my life time at Eden of Eden. I don't need to leave. I don't want to leave. And I thought that I had seen a complex system at United States of Eden. Eden of Eden is so complex it's simple. It's simple. It's beyond simple. It is also beautiful. And wonderful. Working on the Subprocess of Internal Monetary Translation is an honor. And like any love I have felt before I only felt the love because of job security. YES! Not only do I, a loving employee, am allowed to read and edit the code the touches all the money processed from United States of Eden to Eden of Eden. How many people are able to see they are responsible for all the monetary transactions between United States of Eden and Eden of Eden? Answer is: 1. Me. I am the only one. I am that honored. I can't believe they allow me to use my life time to edit and publish the subprocess. I believe at times this is a joke. And some one during a Sleep Meeting will show me that all this is a joke. That I am not really working for Eden of Eden. But it is true. And the truth makes me feel good. It gives me reason to live. It makes me feel that I can love again after being laid-off from United States of Eden.