What am I going to do? I NEED TO GET MY OLD JOB BACK!!! ...I miss so much working for the United States of Eden™. I loved creating those fun tools to convert molecule or better scan the brain of an Entity of United States of Eden™. I loved all those things for they gave me my purpose. They, and the job, gave me reason to live and be. It was what made me. It is what breaks me. ...I need to work on those projects again. My life was complete. My life was full of thought. I felt loved and needed when I was working for United States of Eden™. I loved going to bed in the office and waking in the office ready to work and begin to create or complete another project. Now I live in a temporary apartment given to me by the United States of Eden™, so I can transfer from working and living life inside the work buildings of United States of Eden™. Laid-off :( Laid-off and I need a new job! A new place to live! New! ...I hate new. I hate new because it means I can't work on real work. New I hate because it means choice and change. I DON'T WANT CHOICE OR CHANGE! I want consistency. I want unquestioning things. I want to control my environment. I WANT TO WORK. I want to work, but there are no jobs. There is nothing, but Contracting, but contracting requires too much change and choice. Contracting requires getting to know people, talking and seeing with new people, no definite future, no insurance. NOTHING! It offers distractions as I try to go from one job to the next using up a lot of work time looking for work. I DON'T WANT THIS!!!