What am I going to do? I NEED TO GET MY OLD JOB BACK!!! ...I miss so much working for the United States of Eden™. I loved creating those fun tools to convert molecule or better scan the brain of an Entity of United States of Eden™. I loved all those things for they gave me my purpose. They, and the job, gave me reason to live and be. It was what made me. It is what breaks me. ...I need to work on those projects again. My life was complete. My life was full of thought. I felt loved and needed when I was working for United States of Eden™. I loved going to bed in the office and waking in the office ready to work and begin to create or complete another project. Now I live in a temporary apartment given to me by the United States of Eden™, so I can transfer from working and living life inside the work buildings of United States of Eden™. Laid-off :( Laid-off and I need a new job! A new place to live! New! ...I hate new. I hate new because it means I can't work on real work. New I hate because it means choice and change. I DON'T WANT CHOICE OR CHANGE! I want consistency. I want unquestioning things. I want to control my environment. I WANT TO WORK. I want to work, but there are no jobs. There is nothing, but Contracting, but contracting requires too much change and choice. Contracting requires getting to know people, talking and seeing with new people, no definite future, no insurance. NOTHING! It offers distractions as I try to go from one job to the next using up a lot of work time looking for work. I DON'T WANT THIS!!!

I thought managers had forgot to have the layoff. The rumors had changed. Cycles cycled through rumored-to-be-layoff Cycles with no layoff. Work was going good. Work was. Then I find out I am no longer an employee of United States of Eden™. I have been told I have to leave this building, my home, by the end of the Cycle. What am I going to work? Where am I going to live? How will i live without this job...

Layoffs are coming soon for there are many rumors to be seen during sleep work and many rumors heard through the cubical complex. I was over by the steam room ThisCycle trying to get one of my employees to return to work and all they would do was sit in the steam room and tell me that they didn't feel like they needed to work because it was likely that I would be laid off in a few days, so anything the employee did now that would piss me off or other managers would not be known by the next manager and that if it was then there was not problems worrying about the manager that would replace me doing something to punish the employee if all they did was sit in the steam room all day. I tried and tried and tried to get the employee back to work, but soon gave up warning the employee I was registering a warning. The employee then said that once I was laid off that all the warnings I gave would be perceived as being given by one who is incompetent and would therefor be removed from the system. Too stressed to want to further stress the topic and began to see if what my employee I manage said was true, and I found that this layoff was focused upon the Managers because there is thought to be too many Managers, so I don't know what I am to do now. Wait? I want to throw-up. I feel dizzy and weak. The work is suffering. And I did ask my Managers and they said they can't say anything about layoffs if there even was going to be a layoff. I really really hope that there is no layoff. I don't want to lose my job. What? What would I do? Restart the .name corporation?

The review. ...The review was, was, was good. I think it was good. It was bad because I got in trouble for beginning many projects and not completing them all. This was most of the meeting. Manager #2 and Manager #3 and Manager #4 all yelled and screamed at me about this project and that project. This is deserved. In fact, I am happy they did yell at me. It made me feel good. I feel better. I wish the managers would yell at me more. I deserve to be yelled at. And after all the yelling they told me that I wasn't good enough to become a Manger #2 or that I didn't deserve more money, so I got no raise. I did get two more employees to manage. This is good. This is great, in fact. Now I can complete the projects. Now back to work. Back to fun. No more stress of having another review for a Hex.

I don't want to do this. I don't. Can't we just avoid the review time? Can't I just receive the review in a electric store? Anything but waiting to sit down and listen to the machines cite all the goals and accomplishments of the team. OF THE TEAM. The team is what worries me. I have never had a review when being a manager. Now I will need to give my only employee. And I don't want to. I don't want to rate and pass judgment about a fellow employee because I am the manager. A manager that has the most accomplish task is me, but the manager with the most unaccomplished project is me. I have been unable to fix a new bug with the CarbonMonoxide2Oxygen Test Tool. Neither me nor my employee can fix this bug. And this bug THIS BUG make the review tense. At least there are no layoffs. If there were layoffs then I would, I would, I would be more nervous. More nervous than I am now. Now. Right now. I gotta a go. I need to pace.

WORK! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WON'T YOU WORK. I GIVE YOU INPUT. YOU DON'T GIVE ME OUTPUT. YOU NEED TO WORK. I CREATED YOU. I CREATED YOU AND THERE IS NOTHING I SEE WRONG WITH YOU AND I NEED YOU TO WORK NOW. NOW OR I WILL LOOK LIKE I AM A FAILED EMPLOYEE. NOW OR I MAY LOSE MY POSITION. NOW BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN ENGINEERING YOU FOR SO SO SO SO LONG THAT I JUST WANT TO BE DONE WITH YOU AND SEE YOU PROCESS THE PROGRAM I GIVE YOU TO PROCESS AND DO WHAT YOU SHOULD DO SO WE CAN MOVE ON AND WORK ON THE TWENTY OTHE PROCESS WE NEED TO CREATE. WE NEE TO CREATE AFTER YOU WORK. WORK. WORK. WORK!

People keep looking at me weird when I leave the office. It is a good thing I don't leave the office often. That would mean I would have more people look at me. They look at me and pass then whisper. I have been visiting some of the gossip rooms and in these rooms there are lots of seeing about how I should take a dayoff or a vacation. YES! People are seeing about my need for a dayoff or a vacation. Are these people trying to get me fired! Are they trying to get me or force me to take time off from my work? Do they want to take my position when I am gone? Are they trying to make me look bad to get me fired? There has been rumors of another layoff. Another layoff means I can't take time off work. I need to keep working. I need to work morning to night. I need to work all Cycle long. I don't care if the seers in the site room are leaving messages that I need to have time off, and I could die if I don't. What are they trying to do? Why? Why? Why? Why? I do no understand. I want to understand, but I can't. I need to work. Why wouldn't I want to work? I am alive. What else is there to do? I just hope my managers don't take more of my work away. I want all my work back. So much fun. WORK!